29-11-09

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MWO. Next stop, AW.

Paranormal Activity - SHIT. very intense. Exciting. Provoked personal growth on some non physical level. Inspires emotional activity. Now listening to Blinded By Blood, that kind of vibe. A space in my personal field that goes down a very deep rabbit hole. Having perhaps faced a degree of personal nihilism I've reaped the rewards and can deal with strength in the dark and alternative ('water, space, fire, dreams, candles, art, smell, sound, memory, waves, Harrods, eid, Giger'). Wonderful place to be. In the absence of self trust...fear is anticipation, excitement, mystery, good fuel.

Left foot - 155. Up to 170. Thoughts of live mixing and bass drum dynamics don't seem far off if I keep this up daily.

In learning some of the ROTM material (House Of Midnight intro) - realised there are plenty of weird fingerings that create avenues of their own. This stuff is going to take 12 hour days for a couple of years, of baby steps and extreme attention to detail on all instruments to master, and the doors that will open (notes here include 'rhythm theory (books like Rhythmic Illusions)', 'vocal styles', 'shifting/arpeggiating/picking chord shapes', 'application, execution and interplay') could lead to even more ideas. Hallways of all ways into infinity. Potent and powerful stuff, absolutely, and given a potent blast of self trust, the door seems to open into my own spirit. I'm very excited. HUGE challenge. If that means adding in RnB multitracked vocals a la Beyonce, FINE. I'll cross that road because there's nothing to hold on to, metal has largely become boring, spirit has been forgotten and the only way back there is to shock people, and life's a ball anyhoo. Love that record anyway.

Success mindset means quitting if you want to. Being able to quit anything if it doesn't satisfy your own soul. That could mean people, any given task, your mindset, even your own mind. If the preoccupation is on ideas and potential patterns, anything is possible and everything is negotiable, it's just about what fits the hole.

If you trust yourself to get it done - you grow at a rate faster than you can imagine. Old wounds are there to be healed and in fact, with attention, create their own healing. Remember - what your hate in another, you hate in yourself, and what is not a part of you doesn't bother you.

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