20-12-09

CLOSED:
Left foot at 142, right hand near 200 (PUSH IT!)

18-12-09

CLOSED:
Finished AW. BnC next. All day tomorrow. Kick it.
If you have no idea what you're doing at any time, you've become an actor asleep at the wheel.

OPEN:
Bad night at group. Raise your standards. Immature people aren't worth your time. Find people who you trust and spark with only.
Get out of this house. It's an extremely bad influence.
Hate sucking at plastic guitar. 1 part=clicking and snapping perfect at tempo, and memorized chart.
GRIEF - and being in the heart. Am I being resensitized? Dive in.

12-12-09

CLOSED:
Quiz. Fun! Add British pop, politics, geography and history to cultural music studies.
Force Unleashed....physics, story, production design great. Gameplay irritating - too linear, bad camera, not immersive or creative enough. More savvy to what makes a good game.
Uploaded RSD disks.

HEARTFELT music - the spirit creates emotion, emotion creates and connects to sound, sound is produced in the moment without style through improv, completely relaxed, flowing, and at depth.
Spirit dissolves all the layers into each other in the moment, at the core. That's true mastery.

Decided to leave certain people alone until I was happy with myself. Scrap identity and raise standards: empty mind, reaffirm affirmations every hour.

OPEN:
Go deeper. 100% is a whole new game. No thought, no stress, just total relaxation and automatic pilot of the soul.

09-12-09

CLOSED -
Videogame book. Silly WL appointment and letter.

OPEN:
Dead Space/Force Unleashed :D
App+Type/RSD, Finish raw notes and gym routine!
meetup.com!
Tree climbing!
Poker/kickboxing!

Tomorrow: PO/JSA B2W @13.15/haircut


Simple is good.

08-12-09

CLOSED:
Kiss Kiss Bang Bang / Peep Show series 2 / Mesrine / Corporation. whilst doing hands (198) and feet (130ish - new technique seems to be developing...)

Raw notes are DONE. Took all day. AMAZING book - lessons from miracle doctors. Nail in the coffin for allopath medicine.

That's all for tonight folks. Not much but closure feels so sweet. more to come.

06-12-09

CLOSED:
T2 audio commentary - liet motifs, slow mo, camera angles/dynamics/colours, themes/foreshadowing/exposition/timbred/textured sound fx. DAMN - Cameron is an insane director. Stacks, builds, and releases emotions and tension in an exciting, intense, innovative, and sensually involving way and it ALWAYS pays off. This is how movies should be made. Hell, this is how a director should be. Devoting every minute of his life to creating his craft and life to the widest, deepest, and fullest, in EVERY area. Not only is it possible, it's now required in order to get to the next level. So now I have to learn how to draw, how to make movies, AND deal with people on a sharp time frame. That is, if you want to play the game at the absolute top. Judging by results, who wouldn't?

Keep it short, sweet, fun, and honest.

OPEN:
Chord progressions - melody harmonies. Look for books on this subject.
Set all of this to memory as conversation springboarding.
Locking down the variables of a social sport: 1) depth of emotional field and related thought patterns 2) 1 in 15k input recording and inevitable output 3) changing levels of focused concentration from sleep/diet/exercise/general health, 4) individuals and climate in the outside environment.

05-12-09

CLOSED:
Morning situps - straight back.
Finally hit the gym again. Go faster. Add Paraliminal at the end (Automatic Pilot?)
Sail, swim, run, bike, climb, parkour, MMA - pents.
Build stamina.
Shopping: tooth soap. Star Trek DVD.

OPEN:
More classical - pop - urban, internet radio - review the Monster.
Eliminate fears - spiders, people behind you, success. Make it the last time - effortless. Build self trust - deal with survival anxiety.
Pavlina posts - fashion sense and social networking (emotional support, activities, fun, networking).